Note to Self 3 – Who am I really?

To find who I am means to totally forgive my past and what I have perceived as wrong and to let go and be happy in the now. Contrast is an amazing thing as it opens our eyes to who we really are and what re truly love and do want in our lives – it is not until experiencing the contrast through seemingly negative events that we start to ask for what we truly desire.

I “stumbled upon” (was led to) these 2 videos and it brought tears to my eyes and a realisation that the person that I most need to forgive is myself and indeed that everything happens for a purpose.

 

 

It seems that now I am able to play more, am not taking life so seriously. Without the rush and panic in my mind I can just go with the flow and do what feels joyful to me and more and more things that make me happy are flooding my path. No more shoulds! When I think back to our experience years ago I couldn’t find who I was and it drove me crazy – I would make things up just to fit in with all those people who did know. I couldn’t envision who or what I should be, or what my part here was yet knew there was something, it was so elusive.

The key was that I was doing what I thought I “should be doing” to please others. Doing what others told me to do and what they thought I should be doing – or rather what I thought they thought! We were so confused that at times we would just do the total opposite.

So many limiting beliefs I have held, so much thinking “this is the way things had to be” and if we did otherwise there would be unpleasant repercussions. I guess that is why I so easily allowed Andrew to tell us what to do – it was so much easier to follow his advice than try and work out my own convoluted thinking. It didn’t work because it wasn’t us, it wasn’t our way and we have been blessed in being able to see that now and know that we do know the way and don’t have to follow anyone else.

 

 

In asking for help from the divine with how to release my limiting beliefs I am overwhelmed with answers and methods. I constantly have to remind myself that I have all the answers within. When I do so that feels so much better – there certainly must be a large belief I have in thinking that everyone else knows better than me. I have always thought no-one listened to me (and they often didn’t) however no doubt that is because I have not listened to myself.

So now I feel more childlike and intend on playing as I did when I was a child – I am going to just have fun, give it a go and enjoy what I’m doing as I’m doing it without worrying about what everyone else is thinking or feeling guilty! Gosh it makes me excited just thinking about doing that.

So dear diary I shall leave now as I am most excited to be packing for our family to go camping with Linda, my old school buddy and her rather large extended family, it shall be lots of fun. xx

By the way – The book The Healing Codes has just been launched. I have only touched on this however find it looks fascinating as it looks to be another great tool and came to me through so many different recommendations it sounds advisable for me to read. I figure the faster we heal ourselves the better and different things appeal to different people! You can access it here at:

 


 

You can also find out more and access specials at this link I received from Spirit 2000 –  The Healing Code

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